Friday, January 21, 2011


I thought I'd be headed back home today, but some last minute rescheduling on the part of my doctor is going to keep me here for another week.  It would have been better to have been able to plan for it, but it's mostly a good thing - the reschedule means I get to actually SEE my doctor rather than just dealing with labs and medication refills, and it's overdue... the RA dept at the military facility where I go is getting way over-extended.  I've gone there for other a decade, but I'm not going to be surprised when it finally closes down for lack of having any doctors to work the clinic.

And it is of course lovely to get to spend more time here with Michael - it lets me schedule some time to also go see my oldest daughter and my grandchildren... it's a fairly hefty drive (about 45 minutes away), but with more free time, it's possible.

The down side?  Youngest daughter is left to stay with friends for an additional week, and I feel 'off'' not being with her - no idea if she feels the same.  She's at a stage when she prefers time away from mom, but at the same time wants mom around and on call.  This means another week of needing my other daughter and son-in-law to make daily trips to the house to look after the cat, and knowing she's not getting enough face-time and lap-time to keep her happy.  It means things I intended to get done this next week...won't. It means the bit of cross stitch I brought for one week will be done, and I really should have brought one of my Jan 15 Challenge projects with me after all.

Mostly, I'm realizing I'm almost perfectly balanced between worlds at this point - home is there... and home is here as well.  And neither place has all the people or things that add up to 'home' so I always am longing to be elsewhere - always at home and never at home.

Less than half a year of this to go, and then I'll be here for good - and the serious work of missing my child and empty-nesting can begin in earnest!

As far as this week has gone - we did pack in a few nice outings - went to see Peter Mayer play (and he puts on a very fun show), went out to play poker - my first time, and I held my own pretty well, and last night over to a good friend's for sushi and movies.  This next week is likely to be a bit quieter.


  1. Well I'm glad you get to spend more time with the one daughter and I hope you get all your medical stuff taken care of.

    I know what it's like to have home in different places. I live in TN which is home with my hubby but I visit my family in FL. Over Christmas there wasn't enough time off for my husband to come down to FL with me so I had to go by myself. So I was home but it didn't really feel like it.

    I hope you get lots of stitching done! That's the other thing I do when I go to FL. I do stitching and scrapping so I bring everything and one will get done but not the other. Or I finish my cross-stitch so that's when I bought that Hockey piece!

  2. The other projects will still be there when you get home to your other home. Look forward to photos of the one you get finished!